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Happy Friday!
Hello! I haven't written in a while because I don't really have a lot to talk about. Things are fantastic! I'm driving more, grocery shopping, and doing general errands. I cleaned our entire kitchen and even rearranged the 100+ beer glasses in our cupboard. (My husband works at a brewery.) I never thought I would … Continue reading Happy Friday!
Happy Tuesday!
Today was the complete opposite of yesterday. I actually enjoyed talking on the phone and it was probably the first real conversation I've had with my boss this year. I had a ton of monthly reports to do which usually take me forever. I constantly second guess myself and look at them over and over … Continue reading Happy Tuesday!
What it’s Like to Have a Panic Attack While Driving – A Poem
This is so me…
I wrote this in February of this year after one of the worst panic attacks while driving in my life. As I continue to work on my social anxiety, panic attacks, and my driving anxiety I wanted to reshare this piece.
A Driving Anxiety Poem
So I figured I should preface this with what happened. Last night I got in my car at around 5:30pm to run some errands and pick someone up. About five minutes into my driving (which I am now calling car anxiety or driving anxiety officially) my anxiety reached crazy levels. I barely was able to pull over and I had to have someone drive my car home.
It sucked. I haven’t had a panic attack in my car in few months and never this bad. To cope I wrote this raw piece. Its kind of poem but more my thoughts. I never wrote something during…
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Update
I've had some really great days recently. Days where I wake up humming and singing and ready to take on the world! Today was not one of those days. Nothing bad happened, I just generally felt blah. I didn't want to talk to anyone on conference calls and secretly hoped and prayed that they would … Continue reading Update
Lozenges
I've taken Ketamine lozenges twice this week and they make me feel about the same as I do after the infusions. It only lasts for about an hour, but I feel drunk within 10 minutes. They taste pretty bad half the time, but the Strawberry flavor helps a little. Last night it gave me almost … Continue reading Lozenges
Ketamine VI
I had my sixth infusion on Friday with the same dose as the previous two, but recovery was much better this time. So what's next? They gave me a prescription for Ketamine lozenges that I can take to keep the drug in my system. Everyone is different, some take one a week and others take … Continue reading Ketamine VI
Heavy / Light
Disclaimer: This is going to be a heavy post so grab your Kleenex. This WILL be triggering to some. I haven't felt like posting in light of the recent events in Austin. I tried to stay off social media and not think about it too much, but it was impossible not to. Then I noticed … Continue reading Heavy / Light
Ketamine IV
It seems I may have set the bar too high with my first painting. So far the rest have turned out like a 5 year old mixing all the colors together. 🙂 I really wish I could recreate the things I see. Most of them are three dimensional and I am not that skilled yet. … Continue reading Ketamine IV
Ketamine III was not a charm
I had my third Ketamine Therapy Infusion yesterday. Apparently your body gets used to Ketamine very quickly so they increase the dose a little each time. This time it was too much, not terrible but not great. I felt incredibly drunk afterwards, that ridiculously embarrassing "I love you man!" drunken state. Since I was so … Continue reading Ketamine III was not a charm